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Cancer Sucks- Update #13

As summer comes to an end and everyone is struggling to find their footing with online and distance learning, I find myself longing for days of the past. When the first day of school was celebrated with a supply and clothing shopping trip that resulted in adorable 1st day photos. When I didn’t have to strategically calculate how many times I want to go up and down the stairs of my own home because of the sheer effort it takes. When I could hug my friends and family freely and they would hug and hold me in return. When my bedside table wasn’t overrun with prescription pill bottles. When my kid didn’t hate and judge me for everything I did. When the world was a simpler, happier place.

But these days, everyone is a little extra miserable than usual. The stress between friends and families handling the pandemic differently is destroying relationships. The fear and consideration of losing loved ones over differing political and social climate standings is a daily struggle. As far as I can see, we are all a little more lonely than before.

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Cancer Sucks Update #12- Why aren’t you back to normal?

Do You Even HAVE Cancer Anymore?

This might be just a guess, but I’d be willing to bet I’m not the first cancer survivor to feel lost during their fight. I’d think it is to be expected after all of the fight, loss, and change that happens during the journey. But I do wonder, how many others out there have been DOUBTED during their treatments or recovery? This is a genuine question. I assume I can’t be the only one, but at the same time, am wondering how normal these questions are? I’ve heard these questions and comments a multitude of times from the people closest to me in my life. 

    • What pain do you even have anymore?
    • Why are you still so tired?
    • Sometimes it seems like you’re just overdramatizing the pain.
    • Your actions are similar to an addict: Faking pain to keep the prescriptions coming?
    • Why are you still on those pills?
    • Why can’t you just take different pills?
    • Shouldn’t you be off your pills by now?
    • You’re not doing enough at home, why don’t you just…
    • Why aren’t you back to normal yet?

I hardly know how to react to the comments, much less get them to stop swirling and echoing inside my head. I’ve been called a monster from those who never visit, accused of faking and overdramatizing my pain or symptoms, and told consistently “don’t take it personal” regarding my concerns. Am I the only one?

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Cancer Sucks Update #7

Cancer Sucks Update: So it’s been a while since my last post, mostly because there were some pretty tough days in there to get over. But there were some good and great ones too, fun with visitors, a trip to the Mayo, and my dad came home again for a couple of days.

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Cancer Sucks Update #6

It’s WORLD CANCER DAY! What a sad day to need to have… But it’s here and it’s getting harder to ignore as this ugly foe attacks the world without yet an end in sight. Today seems like an appropriate day to give a Cancer Sucks Update:

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Cancer Sucks Update #5

Cancer Sucks Update: What a week, whew! A huge shout out to everyone who helped me get through it with a smile! (Including the largest balloon I’ve ever seen in my life) 🎈

My 103.1 fever brought me into the ER on Tuesday, followed by an unexpected super fun few days with some of my favorite nurses at Mercy. I had my second drain bag (yes, it is as attractive as it sounds) installed to keep yet another abscess at bay. After all that, and after being cleared of all infections, I was able to get my port installed in time- so chemo this Tuesday won’t have to be delayed. Yay!

 

After finally getting home and a couple of days of sleep, it was haircut time. It’s been falling out like crazy, but thankfully I’m lucky enough to be neighbors with Hair by Emily Coffin, who was so kind to come to my home to give me a sassy, albeit temporary, new cut. Thanks again, Emily!

Then, my other neighbor, Michael, came over with the most incredible surprise and presented me with this amazing American flag plaque from Michael Hrdlicka of Nida Marketing Group, Inc that simply brought me to tears!! 🇺🇸🤗🇺🇸

It’s been a crazy 6 days of tests and pokes and scans and unfavorable results, but we keep charging ahead, one day at a time, with the biggest smiles we can muster! #cancersucks

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Cancer Sucks Update #4



Cancer Sucks Update: So the scans came back with some not-so-fun results today, Grr. Sadly, the cooties have spread a fair amount since the surgery. These are fast, angry little effers… But at least now I know what I’m working against!

So, even though the specifics suck, there is a lot of power in knowledge. With it, I’ve already got things moving for second opinions and alternative options, and I’m very excited for those!

If you’re so inclined, please keep those vibes coming! 😬 Not wanting to leave on a bummer note, I leave you with a photo of a kid and her cat. Just the best kid in the world, in fact. ❤️❤️❤️